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Since I was planning for some time to have a discussion regarding this, I have been dwelling on my own experiences and my vamp friends who shared their stories with me. I kinda had an interesting self-discovery that although I always thought it was this distinct and life-changing moment for me. I was actually a lot less of a shock and more of putting names on the puzzle pieces which I was already starting to put together at an earlier age.

I was always a very spiritual person and well I was rather sensitive to things, all the unique environments and stimuli always caught my eye and the subtle things were slightly out of grasp. Like when I hugged someone there was a pull from my side which I always called "love tug" when I was little, it was a fun name I called it and I would sometimes tease my friends saying better watch out I might love tug you hard haahha. My one friend "L" was a bit more sensitive to it and subconsciously somehow I knew to be more gentle to some than others. However you want to call it, I was already being considerate of those around me even though I wasn't aware of the whole situation.

The first time it kinda clicked together was at a party in senior year, there was this very good-looking guy who was always shy and well all the girls, ehehe even some guys wanted him badly. I remember he would always look at me and I would feel this slight pull from my side almost like I could sense his feelings or lust. I actively avoided him at first but when he approached me, saying how enthralled he was by my eyes, really didn't help things at all. Well, at that moment the urges and cravings hit their peak for me and, I discovered something which not only helped me feel better but helped me understand myself. It was an overwhelming experience that stuck with me since then. Although, I might have taken more energy than I should have since I was in a frenzy during the event. This experience did teach me stuff which has stuck with me since then, whether a moment of realization or a steady clicking into place, awakening can resonant with vamps in many different ways, it was a beautiful and fierce moment for me, but for others, it might be a simple shifting of perspective or mindset, whatever it might be I’m glad we can share our experiences which make us who we are today.

Thanks for reading,